Tuesday, July 31, 2007
tonight, I am very nerves... cos to tell the truth, i will be senting out my invitation to others tml... i am hoping to sent it out today... but i thought i was too early... currently, i am still has hestidating... should I sent tml... cos i scared i sent out too early...
at the same time... i m nerves as I do not know who will be able to come for my party... i am getting worried on that... cos there are so many uncertainly... and i will really need to prepare for the worest... hai... jus dun think so much abt it la...
so wish me luck tml! hope i will get good responds!
Moonlight Shone On...11:16 PM
Monday, July 30, 2007
Moonlight Shone On...12:18 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
finally finished reading my hana kimi comics...its not that fantastic after all... hmm... recently have been busy trying to design my new blog for my bdae! I really put in damn lot of efford to get it nicely done. there are lots of concern such as trying my best to have proper or almost perfect english over that side. Main reason is really because my boss will be reading that and i dun wish to get myself laugh at her due to my bad english. another reason is really because i am expecting ppl to go there and read... ya...
there are so many things i need to do but i jus dun feel like doing anythings at all... mayb things related to my bdae may interest me... but other than that such as projects, writing of goals, skills, knowledge what-so-ever... jus makes me feel so sian! somehow... i jus wish to escape from doing all those things... however, the deadline is tml.. which i will need to force myself to get the things done... hope that i have the luck to finish everything by today....
the key word is concentrate.... concentrate ger! focus! aza aza fighting~
Moonlight Shone On...10:55 AM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
well... it took me the whole morning and afternoon to decide whether i should go or not... and when i was abt to msg him that i am not going (which i felt really bad cos i promise that i will go) ming msg me... and well, i pulled him along with me... lol... last minute got a present and rush off to the location le...
Its located very near the taka mall in little india. a small pub, he book the entire 2nd floor which is small and cozy. there is this room painted red with lots of cusions and sofa... the settings over that side is really not bad... haha... then there is this place that is like open air, but the space is very small... that is where the food is placed. hmm...i like the deco of the room la... haha...
We went off early cos ming got to meet his gf... and I would like to leave cos seems like i was almost the only ger there! so many ar ping ge there! lol... u know when u meet up with those ppl, what they talk abt? its all about army, army and more ARMY! lol... yup... so went off early.
ps: Han look damn skinny la! I wonder where did the fats went to!
Moonlight Shone On...10:06 PM
If i have the buffet at my house, she is the owner and will have alot of say in my planning and organizing. i want all the sofa to be in my room. cos the living room is small and if the sofa are gone, there will be more space. however, if the sofa is there, i can't even hold 15 ppl in the living room! but she jus dun understand! hai... i am damn angry la... hope that i can find someplace soon. really dun wish to have it in my house!
Moonlight Shone On...8:34 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
Today woke up early to go back to office to collect cheque with mei. Reach the place too early... so went to one of the cafe there and borrow their chair and table for almost 1/2 hour without buying anything! so paiseh! lucky my seat is at a side where the counter ppl cannot see...
went up to office to visit linda they all. they seems quite slack. haha... but well, due to my tigh schedule, we went for lunch early at about 12pm. went to the 3 storey high food centre! its air-condition and got sub way! ate that with mei... so interesting! first time ordering it... so ended up with alot of vegi in there. lol... but its really nice meeting them up to catch up what had happen on the korea trip and abt devil wears prata.... lol got the spell wrong but that is the best i can come out with... and had my dinnosar w mei! hehe... went to school late cos hehe... miscaculate of time. haha...
school after that...
20 July 2007, Friday
No School, Stuggling to do my individual project, slack the rest of the day
Moonlight Shone On...8:21 PM
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
on the way to school started raining...its interesting to see along the way, lorries, motocyclist all stop to change into those water proof jackets and pants and drivers stop to cover their goods. and when the bus goes further down, it start raining heavily and i saw all the ppl hiding under the bridge... its quite interesting I must say
lecturer have lots of hand actions, as if he is from stage art if not, will be he is from the tai ji quan committee... lol... today lecture is pretty useless.
wanted to do a bit project but they are not free to meet up... wanted to go library to wait for linda but jess came early. had my lunch with linda and jess and bought my books from them... lucky got them... if not it will cost a bomb to me!
went home and sleep and had dinner and watch tv and had project meetings.
recently my life has been pretty screwed up... i had tons of projects i need to do... one individual project dues end of the month and yet i am not doing much... I am jus happily slacking away... if not doing those unimportant things. Somehow i would rather do those stuff than touch on my projects... things like designing my new blog for my 21th bdae... it should be ready by end of this month otherwise begining of aug. will post the website address over here so everyone pls take note!
han's bdae this week, then present haven't buy. then, dun know how to go. then, no one go with me. ya... like that lor...
by the way, does anyone read this crap anymore?
Moonlight Shone On...10:32 PM
14 July 2007, Saturday
Went to bank. Watch tapes. Watch tv. Slack whole day
15 July 2007, Sunday
Harry!!!! OH! I love Harry Potter! The movie is really nice! I dun understand why ppl keep telling me its so so... but I dun care! Its damn nice la! anyone cannot find friends to watch together can come find me! I dun mind watching 2nd time! Woke up damn early in the morning to rush to cini (AGAIN) to catch the 9.30 movie which is free seating! lol... manage to get a okie seat but the movie is really damn nice!
16 July 2007, Monday
Project meeting in bishan which I love it cos it is jus so nice to have it somewhere so near your house! after that had a swimming session with mei... it is a fruitful trip cos i really swim alot... lol... and I turn a bit darker!!! yeah!!!
One thing sad is that my colour runs!!!! yukes leh... no more red! not a single strip is in red colour and the colour now sucks!!!! hai... my 99 dollars gone jus like this! should have waited 2 more weeks...should have brought a cap before i go swim... sad sad...I still feel very upsad with it leh... how how???
17 July, 2007 Tuesday
School and projects.
Moonlight Shone On...9:35 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
9 July 2007, Monday
today woke up early to start my presentation research... hai... need to sent to my project grp mate at 6pm in the evening... had a number of days to start researching... but as usual... i drag till last last minute to get the things done.... went to school in the afternoon... hmm....
10 July 2007, Tuesday
One whole day in school... total 6 hours of lecture... but i only went for 3 hours... and well... skip the rest... let me tell you why... stupid me suggested to my group that we should research on 3 theories and well, i was wrong! need to focus on one and my grp decided to choose on the one i had done! so we went to que up to ask for enquires which, hmm.... actually everyone will need to show them what we had done... guess what? i qued for more that 1 1/2 hours!!! I was like so angry lor... wasting our time! there is no system at all!
well, after discussing with my group mates, i realised that there are ALOT of things missing and we will need to back up our data, need lots more information... so i decided to skip my lecture! haha... went library to do some research... manage to get some things related.... went home early and work on the things i found. slept at 12am...
11 July 2007, Wednesday
this is really something which i haven't do for ages! last night wat time i sleep? 12am, what time did i wake up? 4.30am! lol... ppl must be thinking that i am crazy... well, cos presentation not done! woke up early to touch up.. then need to rush off to work. work start at 6.45am... called a cab and i was early! reached at 6.30am and no one was there... hai... why did i go so early? sad! Sometime i wonder... why! so many places... out of so many places, why did they choose raffles hotel? no air condition! as in those walk way! and we are wearing our formal wear + jackets + makeup! I tell u, i sure look damn oily!
there are times where the birds will fly in for food... hai... i really seriously think they choose wrong place... after that rush off to school which starts at 2pm... where my work ends at 1.30pm... of course i took a cab over... haha... was there early... had my lunch (which is a piece of bread)
after school suppose to go for project meeting at woodland library, but i was half dead! request to have a change in location and went home for a short bath to get myself refresh... have a cup of cup noodle and my day goes on! meeting was rather good... haha... at least i felt that it is a bit satisfy... went home hoping to sleep... but got to prepare for my presentation the next day morning... hai...
12 July 2007, Thursday
Woke up early for preparation cos last night never prepare enough. went to school early to have last minute rehersal... but i still think it is not enough... well... presenatation was not up to my exspectation...we ended 5 minutes early! 5 minutes!!!! hai... we are too nervse i think... we all finish our part too fast...
after all those trouble... went to relax abit with cass to watch the movie called the ger that leaps through the time! hehe...b jap animation! ooh... that is sooo sooo nice!!! though there are some parts i dun understand but I still think that it is very very nice!!! WARNING! its a gers show... lol... so guys might not find it as nice... sleep my way home on the bus...
13 July 2007, Friday
Met Bell and Xiao Qi (uni friends) for the movie transformers! haha... missed the front part but i think its okie... lol... the movie is not bad! haha... quite exciting! hehe... and i went cini for the 2nd time this week! and will be going there on sunday! haha... 3 movies in a week in the same building! lol... dinner at coffee club... chat till 10 plus... listening to their life stories... haha... interesting i must say! touched on the topic on the number of guys that went after them... i was like... hmm... zero for me! lol...
went will mine come?
Moonlight Shone On...11:14 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Morning went to work at Olive, I dun see the need to go work... went there for 2 hours... did something which i can finish in 1 hour... dun understand why my boss insist of me going to work... haha... maybe she missed me?
after the two hours work, I went to meet cass at suntec for our buffet at kuishin bo! hehe... the food is damn nice!!! but I think I go there a bit petty... cos my appetite drop... last time I use to eat alot... but now I only eat a bit... sad hor... but the food was damn damn nice! it also cost me a big big hole! haha.... secretly tell u... that meal cost me 30 dollars!!! expensive food one year eat once can le... haha... i will never spend sooooo much on food ever man! oh my tian!
went to sent my handphone to repair... forgot to save the dates in my memory stick... now all the bdaes of my friends all gone! hai...so if i happen not to remember your bdae... pls forgive me! haha
6 July 2007, friday
Went to school in the morning for projects... hai... was late... damn paiseh.... my major project group got one new guy call shao wei... came to my grp because of ah bell... haha.. they are good friends, but I think that guy likes her... whahaha... woman six sense is very acuate de! hehe... after that went to work again! haha... but somehow I was rather happy to go back... too used to working there.... am i stupid? but I am also happy that I can work with Mei again... haha... Bell drive me to outram park and stupid me thought that it is very near my office and walk there lor! lol... ya... i think I am quite dumb... lol...
The walk was rather long... and hot too! bought lunch back for mei and myself... hehe... seems like office had happen alot of things... well... I got nothing much to say about it... and I had make some serious mistakes... hai... I was rather angry with myself for making such mistakes... hai... after work went to cool down with Mei with thai express, their spicy tom yam steamboat and yummy rice noodles! The day ended best at the brigde near the durain head where we stood there to joke, laugh, crap and enjoy the wind!!! I love the sea wind... and dun have to go so far away to get the sea wind! hehe... at least, i enjoyed the night... hehe... thanks Mei for accompanying me!
07 July 07, Saturday
today's date is so special! 070707! hehe... during the evening went to my annual god-grandma bdae dinner... and of course, my once a year meet up with the handsome guy... well... not really meet up la... jus talk alittle and that's all... nothing much also... anyway, his face grew rounder but body is still nice build... hehe... hope i get the pictures we took that day...
08 July 07, sunday
today went to pick up my handphone! hehe... it's ready for collection! as i have forgotten to save my contacts in my memory stick, i lost all, ALL friends bdae dates! hai... busy personalizing my HP once I got it...
after that went to J8 to eat my lunch with my sister and meet mei to go to quin's church... well... not that i want to say... i think i did mention i will never go for such activities, but well... cos this time Mei is going and i thought if i dun go... she won't go too... so yup... I went again but left early with mei... hehe... Kenny was there! long time never see him le... not much changes i should say...
I think there are things I should really state clearly here... I will never go for any church activities after today... as I have my own religion and I feel that going there is jus a waste of my time. yup... so decided... hehe...
Moonlight Shone On...8:21 PM
Bottom Line
Stop trying to get someone to like you. You two aren't compatible, and that's okay.
In Detail
You cannot be everyone's best friend -- in fact, you can't even expect everyone to like you. So today stop putting so much effort into pleasing someone who clearly cannot be pleased (at least by you). You two are just not compatible, and there's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes, two people just aren't meant to be friends. If everyone liked everyone, the world would be a very boring place, so be grateful that you do have the friends you have, and stop worrying about the ones you don't have
Moonlight Shone On...2:40 AM
haha... thanks! If anyone missed my old one... there is a picture of it!
I am feeling so sleepy! going to sleep soon! there are some updates I need to do but dun have the feel to write now... also, I will need to faster start my project work soon! need to sent in to my project mate on monday evening... but i had did nothing since thursday! time flies so fast! I hope I can survive man!
I wonder, izzit my blog setting problem or nowadays blogger takes a longer time to process? how come it is taking so long to view a new post and my new template?
Moonlight Shone On...2:17 AM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
today went to school for class for the whole day. start at 9am to 12.30pm and 2pm to 5pm. Hate the arrange like this, esp when it is for the same module... sad sad... there are so many things i got to do this week! Found my project mates, dun know i am lucky or unlucky to be stuck with 2 guys for 2 projects... When i found out that is 2 guys... I was... erm... hope that they are good looking if not, hardworking also good... but well, they are not good looking... as for hardworking... we shall see okie! haha...
Went to SP for lunch... erm... not bad la... the food is quite cheap and okie tasting... wahahah... after lunch was very bad for me to concentrate.... standard sleepy time, 2pm... so dead... i hope i can get over my standard sleeping time... work is like that... sch is still like that... this is bad!
4 July 2007, Wednesday
school in the morning... have been going through the same module for the pass few days... it is really getting onto my nerves. Let me annouce something, next tues, got a project submittion, wednesday got CIO workshop, Thursday got project presentation... anyone wanna gong xi wo? stress! thought i can slack abit in the first week of school... at least give me a small break! but NO! hai... why my life so hactic ar?
after school went to work by taxi cos i will need to rush to there... meeting them for lunch... linda's treat! of course must go! indonesia resturant... the food is good! and lots of variety! haha... let's see... got: fish, prawn, beef, chicken, curry, satay, beancurd, vegi, fruits. alot hor? did i missed out anything? haha... hope not... i was damn full... after that wai mei treated me with dinosar! whahaha... we really can eat huh! hehe...
was so tired after working! worked till 7pm and had a online projecy meeting at 10.30 to 12am... sad... after that did some research... I think I am falling sick soon... hai...
Moonlight Shone On...8:19 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
Today, went to work in the morning. trying to complete wat is needed to be done by me... well... hope that i didn't leave anything behind... but i think i did...
reach school early to have lunch... hate it when i need to eat alone and everywhere is jus so crowded... suddenly feel so insecure... seems like I have left my heart in the office... once you get too used to something, when things change, you will have to start all over again... hate that feeling but I am determine to learn to face it and get used to changes... yet, it will be hard... hai...
first lecture, work integration... i think is something like that la... lecturer didn't impress me... lesson start 10 minutes late... which i find it quite common... and yet she is sooooo unhappy. ppl come in late, make them sit at the first row of the lecture hall... damn embarrassing! start throwing projects... stressed. individual and group work... worst thing is we can't choose our own group members... hai... i HATE working with ppl I do not know... esp when I do not have ANY choice at all... but like what she say, in the working environment, we can't choose who we want to work with... i think i heard that not long ago from Juliet too...
Well... like I said... there is nothing much I can do but to wait for things to happen and try my best lor... then they came to this part whereby we will need to write down our long term goal... hai... like what i have told wai mei... i am as good as a lost ship... it is already very good to see a shore to land on... and yet want me to go sail round the world? remembered? I am a LOST ship! No direction how to sail? I do understand what the lecture is trying to implement. but wat i have in mind is jus a simple life. I dun mind working for ppl... i dun mind being a small staff in a company... all I want is a stable income, a stable life...
Yesh, I am taking business degree... the next-to-be-manager for big companies... but come on... look at all those universities out there, how many business students do they have? how many future-to-be-managers are there out there? every year there are so many degree graduated, do you really think that there is as many managers position for to hold everyone? If everyone were to get a degree for management, then who will be the ppl for you to manage? I dun mind being a small fly... I really do... but why do I still need to force to write what long term goal? Currently I know I want to be in the airline industry, it will be alot better to be working in flight but if no choice, I do not mind working on ground too, jus keep me near the airport... where I feel that my freedom is there...
To talk about long term goal, what else can I have? work hard and earn money, enough to provide my mum, dad and sister shelter and food. never thought of what high position I wanna be... jus give me stable job with stable income, I will be satisfied. Hope to get married before 28... but this is really depends on fate... as you can see... I am currently single and will remain single for dun know how long... when will the person who will 世上会有因为失去我而面临世界末日的人 come? I dun know... so it is really depend on fate... these stuff are sooooo unpredictable... can they be goals? my mind can't think far... not the business man or managers cut ppl... but how to write my goals? sad...
really feel that I need something to build up my confidence... to tell the truth, after meeting Justis, he brought back my passion to dancing... perhaps i should try this sem... give it a try... I keep have this feeling that through dancing, it can helps me to build up my confidence... lets see what i will do yeah! we see how ba...
Moonlight Shone On...8:56 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
Alot of ppl i used to loved seems to be disaapearing from my life... I missed you guys... I really missed you all! Siu, missed u sooooo much...
okie... getting crappy... these few days keep having stuff like this... look at the time... i am still awake... bad... i should be in bed... but got this feeling that i can't sleep... hai... emotional storm is not over...
sometimes u jus dun know why your tears keep coming out... something wrong with my eyes? i think i am thinking too much...
Moonlight Shone On...11:45 PM
GST rise to 7%, GSS ended. what was i doing yesterday? working... ya... working and I missed all the shopping!!!! arg... sad!
when to colour my hair... i think the colour is damn red... but since my sister say it is nice, it makes me feels better... haha... painted my nails... and if anyone asked me why all the changes? Well, tml i am starting school!!!! yucks... and my school holiday jus ended LIKE THAT... hai... where are my rest days? where are my freedom? how did i spend my youth? hai... this is call opporunity cost... when u do this, u will have to give up something... so is my benefit more that the opportunity cost? i think so... so stop complaining...
pasieh, having emotional storm today... mixed feelings i guess... i will need sometime to get use to study life... and other things start streaming through... happened to find out that one guy i aim in school is attached... sad... lucky my uni friends dun have this address... anyway... ya, he is attached... so one less good man available... whahah... sound despo? well... that became one of my many concerns... feeling lonely? i was never attached... does that links? I dun care...
my sister told me that i am a complain queen... and well, i am... so i need someone who can stand my complains... lol... and wat else? one who is a gentlman.. which I feel that, singapore men that is gentlemen seems to extinct... getting disappointed with my life... why do i have to live up to ppl expectation? why do i have to change? why am I like this? dun feel like blogging anymore... today wrote too much... tired... and need to rest le... got to work and after that still got school tml...stupid me... why do I have to work so hard?
suddenly feel attacted to this song... kind of feel the connection with the song...cos i seems to lost the real me... what was I like? what should I be like?lost...
Reflection
Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
PS: pls dun really bother with the post details... undergoing the pms period where I always have every once in a while...
Moonlight Shone On...11:03 PM
Today after work went to bugis with Mei. Aim for me today is: To get a new bag!
Hahah... mei hardly go to bugis street, so I brought her walk almost the whole of bugis street. Had speed shopping... haha... its fun watching her buy things... and she bought alot! hehe... glad that she bought the things she likes, cheap and okie quality! hahah... and i manage to get my bag... took me a long long time to think where and which one i should get... Thanks to Mei, I manage to get the bag which I didn't regret. haha...
29 June 2007, Friday
Work was terrible, morning went to collect insurance for my boss and then went to collect walkie talkies from bukit regency... damn it... my boss think I am Da Li Shi! lol... 12 antique walkies are heavy!!! plus the charger and connectors... oh god... it is HEAVY! and I went there all alone.. thank god that the ladies at the other end are very nice, helped me called a cab and lucky me manage to carry the heavy thing back to office... hehe.... well, indeed, I am Ms Da Li Shi!
after lunch, rush to Accenture to deliever something. afternoon cab is very hard to get! hate it with the afternoon sun... decided to a bus back cos taxi stand long que... tired of waiting for cab! after i reached the office got to rush off to botanic garden for rehersal but last minute i got too many things to finish! so went in later to help out for the packing of goddie bag. Boss didn't want Mei to go... sad!!!!! I think I am too used to Mei being around me... when she is not there I feel so weird!!!
Soul was there for the rehersal... when i got home then i realised that one of their group memeber pass away... hai.... human will still have to pass through the stage of birth, aged, sick and death. No matter how sad you will be, there is nothing much you can do to change this... okie enough of the sad stuff...
pack till quite late... and had to walk out with the new guy... ben. full name forgot how to spell... lol... let me give some intro yeah... this guy is from smu (who claim that ntu and nus didn't want him but manage to get into smu = bullshit!) he came for internship at olive. that guy bluff me la... say the journey out is not long... but it is damn long lor!!!!! damn it.
during the rehearsal we were "fighting" around la... and perhaps gave the others the wrong idea. Mei asked me abt it the next day too... haha... well, during the walk to the bus stop with him, I also got think... but after my deep thoughts... i dun think is possible... lol.. there are criteria which he didn't meet. lol... So mei and whoever read this, pls stop those "how do u think of him" stuff. haha...
30 June 2007, Saturday
Met Mei, Ms Juliet and YaNIII~~ at marina square for lunch... hehe... cos mei and i dun know how to go botanic garden. so we met to go there together... hehe... ii really enjoy working with J and yani... hehe... love them!
Ben brought in his urshers, wanted to ask my friends de... but well... pay is not as good and is go do tough job... so i didn't call my friends. but well... the urshers he got is quite helpful la.. we pack the goodie, then transter the goodie, crackers and drinks. this time round is easier that the stadium... at least mei and I see the system... when u wanna get things done, you will need to have a system!
once the event start, it is chaotic, not enough man power, dancers not here (which i was told that i am not the one suppose to be in charge for them). hai... things start to look bad when some things corked up and the program start early and everything is not in going by schedule... say something that upsad the dancers. felt really bad abt it and i really think my tone is not right... but i dun think i have say anything wrong, jus that the way i put the words across is too hush... still feeling bad... hai... but what is done is already done, and i apologise le.. so well... nothing much i can do right?
anyway was extremely busy... worest that the one in stadium.... worked till the right minute of the event... sad! missed the movie, missed the dance part, missed the hugging session. hai... but got the sense of achievement when boss said that the client is very happy with the whole thing. lol
wanted to take cab home, but no cab, called but was put on hold for a long time(waste my money). lucky linda turn back to fetch us.. haha... home hot and sweaty...
Moonlight Shone On...9:22 PM
