Friday, March 28, 2008

learn more abt me:

I am not like what u think...

I might looks happy, i might okie... but i like to hide the true me...

I am very lazy...

I am a perfectionist... but because I'm too lazy... there are times whereby things are done anyhow...

I like objects with moon shape... crescent shape too... but need to be the fat fat one..

I have very low confidence in myself...

I dun like crowds...

I dun like to be alone... but often find myself alone...

I dun see the need to make new friends... or rather... i find it weird to talk to someone i dun know...

I do not buy branded products... cos to me, a t-shirt tt cost 50 i can buy and wear for the same amt of days as a tshirt that cost 10 dollars... design wise, a tshirt for 50 dollars might not be as nice as a tshirt for 10 dollars... quality wise, a tshirt for 50 dollars might be better but a tshirt that is 10 dollars can wear it equally long as the 50 dollars tshirt... i compare the pdt with the price n not the brand w the price... why would u need to wear a 100 dollars plus jeans when it is jus a jeans?

I want freedom... I want to learn to fly...

I like to daydream.. I like to think... think abt my daydreams... n daydream on what i think abt... its complicated

I like to see guys play basketballs... cos i think its damn cool...

I am looking for 世上会有因为失去我而面临世界末日的人...

I like to eat rice... n noodles

I like spicy food...but my body doesn't seems to agree with my heart

I like to sing... but i got terrible voice...

I can be childish at times...

I am very simple... cos i do not like to make things complicated...

I tend to be very forgetful

I hate soft toys...

I can be very dumb at times...

I like to see things in a way that it is good... things i meant ppl n life... to me... i like to believe that all human being are good... but as much as u and i know... it is impossible. still... i do not see why e ppl i know whould want to hurt others... ok... it is getting complicated...

I am trying to improve myself... through getting extra lessons such as learning japanese... n hopefully some other skills which i am interested in...

I do not like to use perfume... cos i prefer e smell of shampoo...

I like to swim but not to run...

I hate to go out after 1pm...

I like to talk... but dislike to talk abt me... cos i don't know wat to talk abt when e topic is me...

I tend to be negative n defensive when certain topics r bought up...

As u can see... i can be very random... lol

I can write more... but this post already took me 4 hours... shall stop here...

Moonlight Shone On...8:32 PM

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Thursday, March 27, 2008

A review of things done today...(refer to previous post)

there are so many things to do today!!!

1. finish my hrm project... only 450 words... can't seem to find motivation to start (1/2 done)

2. go make my payment for my jap class in june later at around 2pm (done)

3. go watch the movie Evangelion at 3.20 after i go and make payment (done! very nice!!!!)

4. start my cover letter for my internship... very impt for my future!!!! if i got this right... i will be one step nearer to my dream!!!! (never touch at all!)

5. start my dc project... haven't been contributing much... (never touch)

well... i by right n by left got to finish my hrm... but i got headache... can't continue...so got to rest early n finish tml before class...that means waking up early like 5am.... yup...so i shall sleep now... night everyone~

Moonlight Shone On...10:22 PM

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there are so many things to do today!!!

1. finish my hrm project... only 450 words... can't seem to find motivation to start

2. go make my payment for my jap class in june later at around 2pm

3. go watch the movie Evangelion at 3.20 after i go and make payment

4. start my cover letter for my internship... very impt for my future!!!! if i got this right... i will be one step nearer to my dream!!!!

5. start my dc project... haven't been contributing much...

Moonlight Shone On...11:45 AM

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Boom... Boom Boom Boom!!!! what does that means? my trip to taiwan is boom... doom... no more....wan lE! hai... if u wanna know the reasons... its because i couldn't find anyone...and my mum strong opposition... ya... hai... heart break... heartach.... hai...

sad...

Moonlight Shone On...9:22 PM

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Thursday, March 20, 2008

sometimes i wonder.... blindly loving someone is so scarily... when u like someone... u still can jugde the difference of good n bad... but when u are overly "blindly" in love... all u get to see is the good things... even things that are bad.... u will see it as good... this is something that is so scarily....

i happen to read some forum... dun dare to post my thoughts there cos i am sure to get bomb by the ppl there... but... its like there are fans that can blindly love someone that cannot accept anything negative comments abt their idol... and then they start "fighting"... ya... i mean come on la... it sounds so childish when they start on anything they say... first of all.. they are only fans... they are not even friends of that artist... do they really know them? they can argue abt that but i believe the answer is no...

how well do they know the artist? perhaps... only the "on air" side of them ba... and they start fighting as if they know the artist very well... it sounds childish... inmature... and dumb... and once someone starts on something... it will go on and on and on...

and how does this affects me? well... come to think abt it... if one day... i am blindly in love with someone... and that someone is bad and blah blah blah... i believe i will not be able to see it... so friends.. if u are my friend and happen to see me to abt walk into traps, dangers or something that i will regret or is wrong... pls, give me a slap to wake me up... hmm... dun really slap me la... but u know... must wake me up before i start doing things stupid... lol... that is what friends are for right? lol

Moonlight Shone On...10:57 PM

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okie... she is driving me crazy... she is really driving me crazy.... n i decided.... i shall now declare war...

to discourage such things from happening in the future... i shall pursue what I dream... and that would be good enough to stop any more restrictions...

wo yao ge ming!

Moonlight Shone On...3:59 PM

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Thursday, March 13, 2008

Its been a long time since i post a proper post... well... today's post will not be like what i normally have as it's getting late and I'm hungry!!! okie... that sounds like vampire or rather a pig... and it is unhealthy to eat at such timing... so i am going to sleep soon to stop my stomach from groaning...

spot any difference??? well... if u didn't... i must say that u are blind... lol... like it? i dun really care... lol... if u know what is love in first sight... i tell u... i really knows...cos i fall in love with this skin once i lay my eyes on it... it is jus SOOOO me! haha...

jus submitted a project... rush like mad... u know.. MAD!!! this evening to submit it... didn't really want to look through it even if i only read through it once... yup... only once.... i hack liao la... brain dead... cannot see, cannot think, cannot concentrate... to the level till i can only see words but somehow nothing goes in... all i know is to faster submit it and it will be over...

today is quite unlucky for me... first it was pouring cats and dogs when i step out of my house... the cats and dogs are really pouring down from the sky la!!! got carry umbrella like never carry like that... somemore i took the biggest i had at home lor... then cos i was took late... got to take a cab and i think that timing is the worest timing for waiting of cabs...so from far, i saw one with green lights.. and then i ran... gucess what? i rush out of my house forgetting to put on a belt... i literally almost went naked... my pants almost drop la!!!

then on my way back... i had to pull my pants while i walk cos its tooooo lose... then my mp3 no batt... then i got 8 rejections today... felt like going out tml to enjoy myself.. but... NO ONE is FREE!!!! got 8 ppl... 8 ppl.. rejected me... sob sob... hai... gucess my dream of steamboating tml will be blowed...

ps: I really love my skin...feel free to comment on it yeah!

Moonlight Shone On...1:21 AM

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Sunday, March 09, 2008

婚礼
词曲: 蓝智峰

（女）那教堂钟声太微弱 却敲痛心中的伤口
台上庄严典礼 纪念我输得彻底

（男）他揭开你面纱时候 一枚戒指将你紧扣
掌声将我吞没

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（女）面带笑容和你握手
（男） 祝福你们的生活
（合）怎却 那泪莫名地流

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（男）你洁白的婚礼 你多么的美丽 台下我的独角戏
（女）走进院子里 昨天的回忆
（合）如今随着花儿慢慢凋零
（男）你庄严的婚礼
（女）我演出的悲剧
（合）最后唯一的结局
（女）教堂的钟声 梦已破碎
（合）祝福声中听叶儿随风飞

Moonlight Shone On...9:16 PM

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Friday, March 07, 2008

IMPORTANT NOTICE!

CRIMMINAL ON THE RUN!

PLS CALL THE POLICE IF U SEE THE FOLLOWING CRIMMINAL!

Moonlight Shone On...11:48 PM

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Moonlight Shone On...10:55 PM

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Thursday, March 06, 2008

okie... ppl who have been reading my lastest post... which was the last one... well... can forget abt what i said... lol... everything is fine now... and I will never give up on my trip... but i am still looking for more ppl to join me... lol...

projects dateline is slowly coming... and my stressed level is slowly pilling up... and to tell the truth... i am very behind schedule compared to ALOT of ppl... or rather say... i am ranking the last based on speed... there is soooo much to cover and yet somehow i jus cannot concentrate... mostly importantly is that i hate it when it is like individual assignmenet! hai...

so pls.. give me luck and strenght to continue and pia all the way! i have a target to meet... so jia you ling! and stop getting distracted!

我发现我真的中毒太深了...

Moonlight Shone On...12:56 PM

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Saturday, March 01, 2008

hai... I am feeling f**king disappointed now... sorry tt I have to used that word... but ya... that somehow best describle how i feel now...

I have been looking forward to this coming May cos I THOUGHT my dream of going back to Taiwan can be fulfilled... I did every careful planning as I can... how to tackle my mother... with careful stragetic planning... I manage to convinced her to allow my sister and I go... HOWEVER... why does that word HOWEVER/but have to exist? ya right.. HOWEVER... seems like my planning is not careful enough... or rather... I missed out something... things keep going wrong...

My mum has been very against the idea of my trip... up to now... even after allowing us to travel... she has been making my life miserable and difficult! she has been picking bones from the egg shell... I tried to fulfill every request made by her, every single one... I tried SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard to get what she wants... I wanted free and easy all along... cos i went there before... and this time round i would like to explore the country by myself... BUT she said it is not safe... so fine... I will go by tour...

she said dad and her would want to go along... but dad cannot take leave on weekends... so have to travel on weekdays... SO, i searched high and low for weekdays package.... then she told me they are not going...

She says that she want more ppl to go with us... SO... I WENT AROUND AND ASKED... ALMOST EVERY SINGLE HUMAN I KNOW TO ASK THEM TO JOIN US... I EVEN USED TEMPTATION, A LITTLE OF FORCE TO LURED PPL TO GO WITH US... but somehow... everyone seems to be unavailable... even if i manage to find one... she will say at least 4 people to travel when she knows that it is very hard to FIND PPL!

went to the travel fair today... check out prices, compare itineraries, asked questions... saw this nice package which fits almost all my requirements... I was so happy... cos originally... i wanted to go tour for 4 days and extn another 2-3days.. cos i want to have the free time to explore... but due to the high in prices... i am force to take tours... and i have been to many places le... so got to find the itineraries that goes to the places i WANT to go and i NEVER GO BEFORE... and that package have almost everything...

now the problem came... cos this is a new company... at least a new name which i never heard of... BUT... NATAS fair allows them to exhibt... and they are under NATAS... i dun see any reasons that things will go wrong!? and she jus pick on that lor.. say what it is a unknown company... and stuff like that... doing whatever she can to pour cold water on whatever I tried to plan...

DO U HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH TIME I SPEND ON PLANNING? SEARCHING OF INFORMATION, LOOKING AT PLACES OF INTERESTS? I TRIED SO HARD, SO DAMN HARD TO MAKE THE TRIP POSSIBLE... PLANNING TAKES PLACE SINCE LAST DEC... I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD SINCE LAST YEAR! THIS IS A GOOD AND ONLY OPPORTUNITY TO GO TRAVEL WITH MY SIS... IT IS LIKE IF I WAIT TILL NEXT YEAR... IT WILL BE IMPOSSIBLE! COS NEXT YEAR HER HOLIDAYS, I WILL HAVE STARTED WORKING AND DUN EXPECT ME TO TAKE LONG LEAVE WHEN I JUS STARTED WORKING RIGHT? THEN DECEMBER GO TAIWAN IS SOOOO WRONG DUE TO THE SEASON OVER THERE... SO IT WILL BE LIKE ANOTHER 2 MORE YEARS? WHY? JUS A SIMPLE TRIP TO TAIWAN HAVE TO WAIT FOR SO LONG?!

NO MATTER HOW SHE PIN POINT ME... I TRIED AND NEVER GIVE UP... BUT I GOT SO SICK AND TIRED OF FULFILLING REQUIREMENTS, MEETING NEEDS, SATISFYING OTHERS WANTS... THAT I DECIDED TO GIVE UP.... RIGHT... GIVE UP IS THE RIGHT WORDS TO USED...

what i can do now is to give up the thought abt it... and let whatever i had done gone to the drain... GIVE UP SHILING!

Moonlight Shone On...12:56 AM

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