Thursday, July 31, 2008
the opportunity is here... what i have been dreaming for... my aim, my hope, my dream... but i don't think i am qualified for it... i have another 3 more weeks to prepare myself... i am not sure if i am able to make it by then... there are alot of things which i would need to take care of and take note of... although i am having test on the following day... but i would not forgo this chance... no matter what happens, i would want to go for a try... at least i would not regret even if i fail... right?
jus wish me luck and i need to have lots of determination, encouragement and reminder yeah! shiling... this is the time when u should focus and work hard to acheive your goals!
不要灰心!
加油!加油!加油!
人因梦想而伟大, 是不是
Moonlight Shone On...11:45 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
过去的轻蔑冷落 let it go let it go
有些人口不饶人
却忘了瞧瞧自己 又有什么资格
*时刻都善良待人 let's move on let's move on
时刻都做好本分 let's move on let's move on
有些人心思浅薄
绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由
也许 确实也受过言语打击
也许 从来也没有什么好际遇
千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里
我们又不会妨碍这世界继续美丽
#我知道我变漂亮了 我知道我被注意了
曾难过 曾失落 微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流
我知道我变漂亮了 我知道我也豁达了
不自卑 不埋怨 就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美 迷住每个人的眼
*也许 想说的话总埋在心底
也许 想要的爱可望不可即
接尽权力争取幸福会看到你
大声说你的真心全世界最动听#
Moonlight Shone On...12:07 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I am lost...
I jus cannot see anything ahead...
The future seems so dark to me... so unknown... so lonely... I felt so lost... not knowing where i am heading or where i am hoping to go... there is no plans, no action and almost no hope... I don't dare to hope... cos i am scared of disappointment... i am jus blindly living my life and each days passes by aimlessly... everyone started planning... everyone had made the first step... and yet i am still struggling... I have been avioding the fact that i will be graduating... and now came the moment that i need to face it... face life...
but the furture seems so dark... so scarily... i know nuts on what i wanna do... i can't see myself heading anywhere... i feel so lonely, so messed up, so uncertain, so lost.... i am so screwed till everything i see turns blur... any music i listen jus stir my emotions upside down... nothing i do seems to helps....
but i know this the stage that i have to face it myself... its the growing stage... and once i see it through i will be fine... this is something that most ppl might go through and they did... its just the process that is making it so difficult... or perhaps it is jus me that isn't trying hard enough...
i hopes that someone can jus tell me what to do... someone can jus decide for me... i want to see light... bright enough to clear my path... but first... there are some personal adjustments i need to do... i need to try harder... and if i continue to be like that for too long... can someone jus snap me out of it? a little push and pull might help...
Moonlight Shone On...12:04 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
eh... nothing is up actually... lol... i joined the sch hip hop dance club... and i got accepted... and class will start on 24 July... hehe... i hope i will not make a fool out of myself... so i decided not to mention that i actually have abt 10 years of dancing background... lol... but its all Chinese dance...n u know tt if i mention it to e ppl there, they will think tt i m very pro.... but the fact is that i am as stiff as an bar of iron... lol... hahaha... mentioning here will actually allow myself to announce this fact online and not in real life... of course my group of readers isn't that big anyway... haha... besides... i was known for being big mouth... not sure y... must b some of e previous incidents but it really depends on the type of info ma... i got fen chun one lor...
i jus hope that this will helps me to gain back my zhi xin xing.... cos i have been rather self conscious abt myself... i jus hope that i can find the real me when i was back on stage...
on the 17 july 2008 thursday night, i meet mishie for "supper".... lol... i am not a supper person esp when i have already gain such a big surface area.... and i am glad that we manage to catch up alittle... haha... there have been unhappy or rather complicated things that have happpened... and u are keeping most of them to yourself... which makes me rather worried... i may not be the best mate to share your burdens but i am a good listener yeah! mishie... i know this sounds very wrong but i will be at your service 24/7 yeah!
18 July 2008 Friday
we had our first project meeting for this sem after sch... and after the meeting i realised that there are alot of things needs to be done... this is jus life isn't it? after which went down to mishie house and chat again... haha... last night meeting was rather short... so decided to meet her again before she leaves... and i am glad that she is enjoying herself in singapore.... pls take care of yourself yeah!
and don't worry... u are not the one who feels lost... cos i am too... so i can understands how u feel...
19 July 2008 Saturday
sch in the morning and then went back home to catch some sleep and rush to work...
20 July 2008 Sunday
slacking at home... met han, ming, xing, teng and karen for dinner today... our special guest gina last minute got family gathering.... madeline and rudith forgotten abt the meeting so last minute cancel on me... lol... we went to linda's (CX) brother place to eat... its near queensway shopping center... we ordered crabs! haha... i think the food is not bad la... hehe... after which ming needs to run off for army.... and the rest of us went to hong kong cafe for deserts... which i was rather surprise when mr han say that he is very full but yet having craving for deserts! lol...
time flies isn't it?! karen has graduated and right now she's is a full time working adult... han n xing is starting school soon... and i am graduating soon too... hai... life changes, ppl changes and that goes to everything else... what in life will stay the same forever?
21 July 2008 Monday
sch, medical check up and then meet cass and fara for dinner... was a little disappointed with the day actually... at first i thought we are having dinner at food court... but changed to kfc... cos i wasn't feeling very well so i was actually avioding heaty food... i had choosen the wrap which seems most harmless to my body... after which we went to the pub that jason reco the other time... i was actually quite excited abt it... cos jason told me that the life band there was not bad... and being someone who loves music... i was actaully looking forward to it!
we reached there at around 8pm... hmm... if u dun mind me being direct... but going pub at 8pm!!?!! isn't that a little too early?! anyway... the pub was rather quiet due to the timing... and there wasn't life band... so i asked... and the lady told me that it will only start at 10... which i suppose is the time we are leaving... hai... and for the three first-timers whom dun know what to order... lol.. damn funny... keep asking the waitress to repeat the menu cos i can't really hear... and got ourselves non-alcohol drinks... i think its call mocktail... its a good place to chill la... haha... and the drinks are nice too! hehe...
it was disappointing i think is mainly because the day ended a little too early... at least for me its early... i was actually hoping that we can stay up a little later then usual... and when they told me that we are going pub... i really thought that we can stay up late... u know... at least 11 plus is fine with me... or perhaps i jus dun wish to go home so early... i actually dress myself up for the day... and was only out for less then 4 hours... why do the effort? okie enough of complaints... i do understand that the gers can't go home late and it isn't good to go home late cos it is not safe...
i jus simply missed all the late nights out... mdm heng... are u reading this? i am hinting okie! lol... anyway i doubt that she reads my blog anymore... seems like those ppl whom i know can stay up late are getting lesser and lesser... why arh? because they outgrown of that? or jus simply because i am not the right audience...
22 July 2008 Tuesday
Stayed at home to do my jap homework... wasn't feel so good and went to jap class... it got worest when i reached home...
23 July 2008 Wednesday
went to see doctor this morning... and had to skip our project meeting... really sorry guys! but i think i shouldn't have gone to spread gems... i have been sick since last week and haven't been breathing properly with my nose for almost a week which seriously means that i have been breathing with my mouth throughout and my self medication doesn't seems to work on me... i need doctor...
feeling better now... as if anyone cares anyway... wasted one day resting... there are alot of things i need to do... but i jus doesn't seems to be moving anywhere...
Currently hook onto this song...
Moonlight Shone On...9:24 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
手停 = 口停 = 靠存款过日子直到我找到工作 = 要节俭 = 不能乱花 = 不能买我想要的东西 = 不能拍照
这是比我预期的还要早, 我的恶梦来的太快了吧!
我都没还有准备好。。。我都没还毕业。。。
怎么办?
Moonlight Shone On...4:53 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008
最进有个很烦人的事，想了很久，可是还不能做决定。可以和他近距离拍照，这是个很迷人的诱惑啊！可是因此必须花一笔钱，让我犹豫不决！怎么办？
Moonlight Shone On...10:11 PM
Sunday, July 06, 2008
我该睡了。
Moonlight Shone On...11:58 PM
Friday, July 04, 2008
今天要以华文写日记，那里不对的地方，请多多原谅！还有，非常重要的，请不要笑！哈哈
6月23日 星期一
今天去工作啦，两小时，虽然很短，可是有钱赚，还不错。马来西亚之逯有点玩过头，所以有点累，好象要生病了，所以之后回家休息。
6月24日 星期二
今天又去工作了。总之，这整个星期我几乎都会去工作两个小时。今天是去帮我妹妹顶两个小时，而很巧的Mishie来找我！我好想你哦！首先，欢迎你回来！再来，我们一定要好好的聊一聊！好久没有和你谈天了！在你回去之前，一定要好好的玩！后来回家做功课，又是零时抱弗脚！
6月25日 星期三
在家看日本连续剧！日式的流行花园！总觉得男主角太小只了！哈哈，也许是因为台湾的道明诗太高太大只，所以跟日本的比实在是大屋见小屋。
6月26日 星期四
只有今天没有去做工。所以下午去做了facial。
6月27日 星期五
今天跟其它天一样，在家无所事事。
6月28日 星期六
早上与Ming和Wendi去唱k-lunch！有xiao jin teng 和 lin you jia的歌eh！可惜时间太短了，有点唱不过瘾！哈哈，然后到city hall meet 我老妈和小妹。我们到harvey norman去拿逯行袋無意中遇到之前明星偶像的第一名！哈哈，真人感觉不错！然后我们到干外婆家吃一年一度的生日晚餐。可以看到我从小就喜欢的干表哥！哈哈，还是一样帅！可惜没有机会聊到天！因该是我在避他啦，因为有点不好意识，也不知道该讲什么。我们很早就走了，后来陪老妈子去买日常用品。
6月29日 星期天
有点不想出门，太阳太大了！可是还是陪老妈子去看小baby! 然后又到amk吃晚餐，又买日常用品！
6月30日 星期一
下午到学校还学费和还书。漫画借很久了，老板又不要来收，只好自己来咯！后来又在学校印一些明天会用到的质料。
7月 1日 星期二
写啦，请看下！
7月 2日 星期三
上晚早上的课后，回家睡午觉，因为昨天实在太累了！
7月 3与4 日 星期四与五
在家玩psp!
Moonlight Shone On...2:01 PM
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Tuesday, July 01, 2008
好啦，我要休息了。明天还有课。
Moonlight Shone On...11:02 PM
