Tuesday, July 28, 2009
okie... there is something tt i forgot to update... my contract is ending on 1 sept... and for the whole of Auguest i will be station in Melioris (outsource agency) and they are located in Genting lane... from tml onwards i will have lots of things to do and no more slacking time... today is the last day for me to slack... and today can also consider my "last day" in HP... thought i will still be back for my last 2 days...
this familiar place will soon be jus memories.... and i jus finish.... finally finish reading my prince of tennis series... so now i got this "finale" feel... like the end of everything... its like i feel that there is so many things i have not tried... so many things i have not prepare to let go... so everything now, at this moment become so sudden to me... i will need to leave this place is less than 10 mins... and will be back one month later for 2 days and tt will b the end of my life in hp... isn't tt fast?
though there are some things i am unhappy abt this place... but overall.. i enjoy working here... even though zh and his gangs have left this place... i think i still can fit in... or rather i am already adjusting my mood, my 'feelings' to fit in... now a sudden change in location kind of bang me back.... i jus take it without digesting... and at this moment i m slowly having the after effect...
should i leave quietly? or? will the new location be better? i am starting to feel confuse all over again...and i need time to digest this whole new thing... i should go now... its time to say goodbye... hai... okie.... stop all the emo-ing... going off... tata!
Moonlight Shone On...5:18 PM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
there are alot of things to update cos its been sometime since i last post... but jus want to voice out my feel today...
was sick since sat... i felt worest after the movie on sat morning and I refused to see a doctor cos thinking of saving the money... so asked mum to get some chinese medicine to drink. rest for a while before going to god grandma's house and it didn't get any better after which. The worest is that my only motivation to go to her bdae dinner is to see the handsome guy and HE IS NOT THERE! so sian lo... anyway, I had to cancel my meeting with gina they all on sunday as I still dun think its good tt i go out thus I rest the whole day at home...
monday went to work and realised tt i need a doctor... it isn't getting any better and i feel dizzy when i am walking... went off to see a doc after work... and he gave me two days mc... i asked him is it h1n1, he said tt nowadays, the chances of getting h1n1 is 50%. and mine is super minor so no need to check. fever is only 37.9... minor minor u know...
today i woke up on time but feeling very tired and decided to sleep more and thinking of applying half day leave. Woke up again at 8.30 and realised tt the fever is gone so decided to cut short the half day leave and go to work earlier. didn't msg my manager cos didn't know what time i will reach. when i reach office, my collegaue told me tt my manager was looking for me and whether i have her number. and I think that she is not happy with me for not informing her before hand.
well.. i know its my fault for not informing her before hand. but there is nothing to do at work also... and i also not sure if i can come or not or even waht time i am coming... hai... now my left eyelid keeps on jumping... got this bad feeling tt something bad will be happening to me... *its jumping right now!
jus to inform u all that HP already send me an email saying tt my contracts will be ending at the end of this month. however i recheck w my agent and it should be ending on 1 sept. so by right i should have one more month. so right now waiting for my manager's reply. i think there is a high possiblitily tt they will end mine early. cos there is really nothing to do at work. i am jus bascially going to work to clock hours and get paid for not doing work.
and to mention... i dun really like the current handling manager... the previous one was better... not very sure how to state the differences... but i think the previous one is more understanding and shui bian... the current one is more demanding and law by law. so i am hoping to get out of there asap... hai... i hope air force takes me... i hope some airline will take me too... i jus hope tt i can get out of here asap...
tt's all for now... plew... i feel so much better after letting off my anger and frustration... this is really a good rubbish bin.
Moonlight Shone On...10:55 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
the thing i hate most abt mothers is that sometimes they care too much... and somehow, i am in no place to ignore, refuse, reject or even overturn their decisions... why? sometimes i wonder...
they are not always right... they can be unreasonable at times and the funny thing is... i jus can't go against them.... i am jus stupidly stuck with their decisions and be a kuai bao bao... sometimes i feel so sick of myself... why do i have to be like tt? why does things have to b turning out like tt? why am i so different from others. why...
i got rejected on a trip... the idea of going for a holiday came very fast... an offer from a friend and i learnt my lessons from previous trip... i asked before i plan. i got permission already. thus planning starts and got complicated... things dun fall in place easily. tt's why we need to plan and organise. and with a mum who is a worried freak... planning becomes more important. because of time constraints and things tt have be settled, the actual departs date change and change again and again. and yet each of us are willing to compromise to each other. it was looking hopeful.
till the part tt i didn't tell my mum abt the different departing dates... as we are going on different dates. i know what and how she will react. that's why i want to have a almost perfect plan (I know nothing is perfect). and somehow the cat got out of the bag before i told her and well... things turn bad... really bad... and the worry freak got over her and well... in the end she decided to turn to religious belief to make her judgement and decision which is too bad. they did not give her a good answer and well... *BOMB* there goes my trip. AGAIN. this is not the first or the 2nd time....
why izzit that jus going overseas seems soooooo difficult for me? why? its jus going to another country! there is so many questions which i have and i know the answers to them but jus WHY??? sometimes i really feel like running away... to somewhere without all this stupid restrictions... i needed freedom... i needed it so badly tt i thought that this trip would be good... wat this moment i thought of jus jumping into any vanices from ANY airline tt offers to fly. even if its garuda, i am fine with it. and there will be no more restrictions from her...
this isn't the first time tt i type something like this... and that means how bad it is... hai... is this fate or wat... seriously... this makes me fells like trying again... for the hope of freedom... or at least, less restrictions...
Moonlight Shone On...11:08 AM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
OH MY GOD... something embarrass jus happen to me!!!! OH DEAR...
你知道吗，我已经很久没有好好的上大号了。所以肚子一直是胀胀的。刚才好不容易有fuu，超高兴的去了厕所的！还想说，对gers来说，厕所的卫生很重要。而且一定要干净! 这里的厕所很干净，所以我上的很爽。可是后来你知道什么吗？它的flush坏了！！！！我的天啊！！！ 超丢脸的好不好。我怎样按都没有水，没办法只好把盖放下来然后听听外面有没有人才敢出来。 自己才刚说要厕所干净，结果弄脏它的却是我！我的天啊！
好倒霉哦！
Moonlight Shone On...10:09 AM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
well i shall start from the very start of the month to update and avoid having super long post at the end of the month... lol... but to be honest... i am super free now... cos i finish all those tt i can do and then now waiting for others to reply before i can continue.... so lets update again ba... lol...
1 July, 2009 Wednesday
after work we went to Marina Square and meet up with Jane, Beatrice, Louis and Jonnathon... i was so tired tt i fall DEEP ASLEEP on the bus throughout the one hour journey... lol.... anyway... it was like once a while de meet up and we had hotpot! haha... when was the last time i had tt? hmm... i think tt was went i was w wei jia and xiao qi and we were tooo fully to walk and even think of vomitting? haha... ya... tt was the last time i ate tt...
and i learnt my lessons.... i control on the amount of food i throw in and good enough, i didn't overeat and i enjoyed the company alot... jane they all are so funny... and thinking abt them now makes me feels lonely... cos i can say i am "Alone" in the office now... kind of la... cos those tt i always eat with are not in e office now and then within my work area its like me alone. of course my managers are here but well... i am not eating with them... i dun feel comfortable w it... well... its time i should start to learn to be independant le ba... cos if i change work i will know no one too... lol.. right?
anyway back to topic... i really enjoy working with the 'young" ones... though we hardly have contact but they are like more lively...
2nd July, 2009 Thursday
outing with qi was cancelled cos they dun have my favourite singers... i want to go ai qing hai!!!
3rd July 2009 Friday
outing with mishie was cancelled cos mishie had other plans.... hmmm... was looking forward to it though..
4th july 2009 Saturday
work at j8... sales was not bad... but i forgot to msg aunite sales! lol
5th July 2009 Sunday
lunch w ming and poly friends were last minute cancelled and dinner w mish and cha was cancell too... lol... stayed at home the whole day thinking should i go run and get off some fats but well... it rained... lol... the lazy me was os-ing thank god... lol...
6th July 2009 Monday
work was busy... i clear alot of my stuff and suspects tt there will be nothing to do after that... but well... lol... it will be good! cos i can play games and do rubbish... lol... anyway...went home for dinner and watch bai wan da ge xing... rainy was good!
7th July 2009 Tuesday
which is today... lol... nothing to do at work and going to make my cup noodles soon... its raining outside... hmm... later i am having my jap retest... hope i can pass!
lets see what i have for this week yeah!
8th July Wednesday
facial after work... and i forced my sis to come to vivo to have her dinner w her bf after their date so tt she can help to decide on my package as it was the last last facial there...
9th July Thursday
made appointment w mei to have lunch... hehe... i want to get out of this office!
10 July friday
so far no plans
11 July Sat
work at j8 and i am still thinking of sun yanzi concert! i tried calling yess933 the whole of last week so many times to try to win their tickets but well... respond was too well and i didn't even had a chance!
12 July Sunday
no plans...
18 July Saturday
harry potter in the morning and then grandma bdae buffet in the evening...
so far tt's all ba... lol.... shall blog again later... lol... its lunch time now!
Moonlight Shone On...11:53 AM
