Sunday, January 10, 2010
okie... i am glad that its weekend again.. though it is ending in about 24 hours time... i think i really need the weekend cos i am not sure if i could hang on for one more day... felt better now and my protective layers are up... or rather i get irritated easily and being super sensitive... like things like a comment or jus a line from someone can picks up my anger... i hope this will go away as its not good to be so sensitive...
jus like today... a sentence from my sis and cha going off jus makes my blood boils... but when i cool down... its actually isn't such a big deal.... hai...
anyway... its about time i start writing about my 2010 resolution... lol. yesh i know... its like 2nd week of the year already... i am soooo late.. haha 2009 wasn't perfect... i started off jobless and only start my contract job in march (i think so). life in HP was good at start but bad when it ends... but overall... i only remembers the good parts... haha...
not sure if i should feel thankful that i found a job right after my contract ends with hp... cos the current jobs is giving alot of stress and i feel really unhappy working there.... my colleagues are alright (better than HP), but i dun like my job, i dun like my boss. all i like is the money and my colleagues. other than that, nothing else. fullstops. that is all. okie... enough of my complains and stop dwelling on it. 2009 i graduated, took my graduated photo with my uni friends... a group of ppl whom i won't forget.... thanks peeps for bearing with me for 2 years :)
i almost went overseas... meaning i almost took a flight to korea with mei. and in the end... the furthers i travel out of singapore in 2009 is to jb... really regretted not being able to go korea. i like travelling with qi to jb... its like freedom... i longed freedom...
towards the end of 2009, i spend alot... i learn to shop. haha.. updated my wardrobe and still think its not enough. actually, 2009 i spend alot... alot on my face.. which ended up getting worest. i really hope tt doctor Ong works... i wish to be pretty for chinese new year... and because of this problem, a camwhoie like me... took very little photos in 2009... and i love to remember my outing with photos... and basically its like 2009, i have disappear for a while...
okie... enough of 2009... what am i expecting of 2010...
first. this year my resolution will not include to find a boyfriend... lol... cos my first matchmaking was disaster. but i am not afraid or discourage on meeting new people. BUT, after all the disappointment for the past few years... i decided not to set a target... if it comes, it will come. if its meant to be that i will be alone for the rest of my life... i will jus take it. after all, i got my jiang long :) (my sponsored child which kind of one of fulfill one of my childhood dreams). so yup... no more thoughts abt it... (in case ming, jason they all laugh at me again... lol)
second. i want to change my perception in life... there are alot of things i need to learn, to be happy with what i have, to make decision, to learn to let go, to learn to control, to learn to love and dun ask for more and many more... due to the rough start in 2010... i decided that i wan to be happy... that is my 2nd resolution in 2010... i wan to do the things i like, i wan to have freedom, i want to feel appreaciated, i want to feel good. i wan to be happy.
thrid. i want to be healthy. haha... i started exercising REGULARlY towards the end of 2009. so i want to continue this and works towards the goal of slimming down... by exercise and reducing abit of food... haha... eatting has always been my favourite and will always be my favourite activity. and i feel happy to eat... so i won't stop eating... lol.. jus tt i will reduce intakes of food tt are high in fats n carbo... haha...
okie... i think that is about all ba... 3 is enough ba... i think i might have more but not stating the rest down... haha... oh... i forgot my job...
i know this is not i wanted... initally i planned to stay for a year... but i dun think i can make it... then i changed and target to stay till june/july. but its driving me crazy.. so i decide to let fate decide my stay... as u all know my taiwan trip has been postphone for so many years... and this year no matter what i will go... so i will apply for leave... 3 months in advance. if they dun approve, i send in my resignation and resign in May. if they approve, i will push back everything to June. hope that it gets as easy as what i wrote... hopes that i can still hang on till then... ( i am still waiting for the air force phone call).
decided on the time line, next i will need to discover me. i need to get to know more abt me, what i like, wat i want and waht i need. then i need to start loving myself. haha... sounds weird? but truelly, i myself dun know what i wan in life. and its abt time i start thinking abt it. (which makes me, myself a late start if u compare me with others...)
okie... i should sleep le... eyes getting heavy... tml going k with jovi... hopes can release stress which i didn't get to release much today due to the short shopping time... night everyone!
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